I’ve never had a real blog besides MySpace. Since I’ve defected to Facebook, now is the time to start a real blog. My goal for this space is two-fold: 1) to chronicle moments from my life and 2) to challenge myself to write/journal about various topics. While writing and communicating in general is a huge part of my personality, too often I rely on spoken word, exercising the easy muscle of the tongue. That’s fine – but as someone who feels great satisfaction when she completes a task that is tangible, I know getting back into a regular pattern of writing will enhance and add meaning to life. To that end, I will be challenging myself to write something that is not current and/or autobiographical once a week.
Now that my mission has been stated, here’s a brief introduction.
My name is Autumn. My stats are: 33 years old, 50% Armenian, child of Hippies (Born Again Christian & Zen Buddhist), grandaughter of immigrants from the Middle East, lesbian, leo carnivore. I work in Entertainment & Sports marketing. I live in Belmont Shore, California. I have an amazing girlfriend, a wondrous dog named Woody and an imperious kitty named Punky.
When I look back on my life I see a lot of contrary factors that came together to shape and mold who I haver become – the obvious one being my parent’s religious beliefs, but others arise as well. I grew up poor in California but rich in Boston in the summers. I was a small town girl who always felt like a fish out of water, even though I had never been in the big city. In high school and soon after I operated on a convoluted mixture of sweetness and yearning alongside tar-like manipulation. One constant for me is that I am always looking for contentment and love while simultaneously always feeling restless for new experience.
I was a late bloomer in terms of recognizing my own sexuality. Now that I know, i KNOW. I am moderately politically active. I am a socially progressive and fiscally moderately-conservative democrat.
At 33, I am watching all of my close friends go through tremendous growth phases where they have children, get married, finish schooling, choose destinations to live, etc. As someone who likes where I live and work, is passionately in love and committed and is not interested in being a parent, I am in awe of these changes, and oftentimes feel left behind.
Life is incredible though. I know that I am lucky and blessed in millions of ways. I never could have predicted the kind of happiness I’ve found with my partner. She is an incredible woman, and our life together is filled with sweetness, partnership, excitement, laughter, joy, passion and comfort. I never imagined I would find someone who could, at 5 years!! still give me butterflies of excitement but also challenge me to a worthy debate on just about any subject. She is my best friend and my love. Who knows what the future holds, but I can easily foresee a beautiful life together.
On that happy note, I will say adieu for now. I am excited to have this space to vent, create, comment and boast.
xoxo A
floreta said,
January 8, 2009 at 4:08 pm
here through sunday scribblings. glad to see you create a writing space for yourself. it’s interesting to hear your thoughts of feeling left behind. being lesbian is just as normal as having kids, getting married, etc. etc. at least, that’s what i try to convince myself. as a bisexual, i have not really explored this other side of me yet…